Letters, the Old Fashioned kind, the Best kind

"Orange is for sunshine and citrus and gladness
for tiger lilies and boldness in the dark forest"

(From Me, especially for You)


- Found on the inside flap of a letter written to me by my darling mother

Giving it All Up to Him

Last night at Village a wonderful woman that I am growing to treasure the company of more and more everyday decided to pray the prayer and give her life, give "it all up" to Him, our Lord. I was so blessed to be able to be there with her as she said those words, "God I give it all up to you." Her prayer was beauty itself and I found myself despite my best efforts in tears, mascara running down my cheeks, just filled to bursting with joy! I was so incredibly blessed to be able to not only witness the miracle and ecstatic joy involved when someone commits themselves to Christ but to be able to pray after her afterwards, to be a witness to her exclamation of joy for the Creator, that was the biggest blessing. I wanted to run up and down the streets screaming to the world, shouting, "She belongs to the King! She is Saved!" I am so incredibly proud and happy for her.

 Giving up control, leaning on faith is never easy, but she chose to believe in what she can't see, believe in truth and in her own words, "I felt him with me for the first time."

She is searching no more, she has found "the One"!

My epiphany about "Funky Town"

Over the last week I've been feeling down in the dumps, ie. episode of depression. My friend Shell calls it, going to "funky town". Just hearing those words makes me think of the old 60's song, Funky Town. It makes me laugh and I automatically sing to myself, "Won't you take me to, Funky Town!" Now if that isn't a mood booster I don't know what is. Anyways, on to my epiphany about my depressive episodes...

Last night I went out to a local coffee pub to listen to the live music of some church fellows. Even though I've been feeling low the last week or so and my bed has been my closest friend I decided I couldn't miss this occasion. I arrived to an overflow of spectators and patrons alike, causing the owner of this pub to worry about getting a citation from the fire marshal. The crowd so overwhelmed me that for a while I considered leaving. I managed to cope by moving throughout the rooms methodically until I nested in a back room with some church friends for most of the remainder of the night. Slowly, and especially as more people dispersed I became more comfortable and even rowdy, dancing openly to the music playing after the show as the coffee house cleared out and talking almost aggressively to the many acquaintances and friends surrounding me. It was later while sitting semi-quietly at last at an old theater converted event center downtown, helping to set up some equipment with friends, listening to the piano being played beautifully that I came upon my epiphany. I remarked aloud to my piano playing friend that despite how I felt I had become rather rowdy over the last hour or so and wondered aloud why that was. I sat there for a moment before answering myself... Perhaps I am overcompensating for my visit to "Funky Town" by being especially giddy and extroverted tonight. I bowed my head, possibly in shame and leaned against the piano. My friend kindly placed his hand upon my back, reassuring and consoling me. I then sat up, at peace with the idea and resolved that even if I was overcompensating it was okay, at least I was trying to be happy and with friends like those surrounding me, why shouldn't I be.

Overflowing JOY and other random thoughts...

Today I woke up and did not fix my hair = Success!
It is currently in a still slightly damp braid and I feel good knowing I didn't waste time making it look "perfect".
Yesterday I realized, my heart isn't ready for a new relationship. No matter how attractive that tall dark male is...

I woke up this morning, after going to bed at 11:30ish last night (earliest since school started) refreshed and feeling good. I enjoy ten hours of sleep.

Monday I went to a concert and enjoyed a band with a bad word in their name, Star F___er.
Fill in the blank yourslef.
I really do like them though.

Yesterday I spent a few minutes staring outside enjoying the snow fall (even if it was changing to slush upon impact). Unfortunately this means the beginning of the end to my most beloved beautiful Fall and hello to the ew gross-ness of murky wet fall right before the glories of real winter.

Remember how in my last post I taked about the feeling of growth in my life?
Well, I think it's greatly because of my change in attitude and how I've started to give up my need for control.I'm learning that worry gets me no where and it's easier to give it up to God, then

wave goodbye with a smile!

 

 

Now I will leave you with a crowd favorite!

Earth, Wind, & Fire:BoogieWonderland